Working Wife VS Housewife

Being a book editor isn't my dream. I never think that i have the opportunity to work in a press field. I am a bachelor degree in french education, means that i should be a teacher at least. But, you'll never know how your life brings you. This isn't means that it happened accidentally, sure i applied this job.

I still remember how struggled i was. I graduated from my university in the end of August 2014, then 4 months later, i got married. Can you imagine how blessed i was? Sure, i am totally grateful enough for this flawless life. And you know what, almost all of my girl friends and my cousins envy me. They said that graduated early and got married in a young age are perfect combo. But, they never know how hard my life was before i got a job.

I write this post because i have a better life now, and i don't even regret of my decision to get married early with no job experiences. But, i write this now, because i want you know before you regret it.
Guys, please think one hundred times before you get married early. First, think what should you do after you have new tittle as a wife. It doesn't matter if you want to be a housewife, but if you don't have any job experience and you're married, it's sooo hard to have a proper job. A proper job means you work in a bona fide job, such as international company or petroleum company or  any banks in this country, or if you lucky enough, maybe you can work in the government office as civil servants. Second, if you think that being a housewife in a young age is not a problem, you must be the patientest person ever! (Javanese called it nrimo :p )Because, your life will completely change. I should give them a great ovation, because being a housewife is such a great decision, not every woman can do that. Especially, if you are an alumnus from reputable university.

Getting married early is my dream, i never regret it. My life is amazing after i got a husband. I have super caring, lovely, and funny husband. Our life was so beautiful, but i had an empty feeling inside my heart. I don't want to end my life just being a housewife. I want to work and i need a job. Whatever it is. After waiting impatiently, i got it. Alhamdulillah.

And yeah, now i am not a full time housewife. I am a book editor and children's book writer. Next May will be my first anniversary as a career woman. I've been trough this journey for almost one year. I'm so thankful and grateful for this life.

But, i am just an human being who will never satisfied. I have an empty hole inside of me, a place that i need to fill. As a woman, i really want to be a mom. I wanna feel how pregnancy is, i need to give a birth and give my baby a breastfeeding. Now, i am craving for a baby. Yes, indeed!

Now, I am in standing in two choices, leave my work and get ready for my pregnancy or keep going with my work and waiting patiently until God give me a baby. I need to make a decision soon, before i turn 25 !!

xoxo

dari hati

aku berdoa, atas segala kemungkinan dan ketidak-mungkinan dalam hidup ini
aku berdoa, untuk mereka yang mendoakan kita
aku berdoa, akan kebahagiaan kita dan mereka

karena kita boleh berencana tetapi hanya Allah yang menentukan, mari kita berencana semampu kita, berdoa sekencang mungkin, berharap seminimal mungkin, dan berusaha sekuatnya sampai kita lumpuh akan kemungkinan dan ketidak-mungkinan itu sampai penentuan Allah terjadi

kepada ketidaksengajaan yang terjadi di hidup kita
kepada ucapan-ucapan lelucon yang menjadi kenyataan di hidup kita
kepada kekurang pekaan ku akan kamu, dan kepada kepekaan mu akan aku
terimakasih

aku tidak tahu apapun,
yang aku tahu aku hanya bisa berdoa, untuk kita dan mereka :')
dan tangisku bisa meledak dengan seketika akan kebaikanNya untuk kita dan mereka :")